I like the rain. The stillness of an apartment complex when everyones gone to work. The lingering car here and there of the lucky guy or gal with the day off. Mist over what remains of the maple leaf lined branches is met with emerald moss from a saturated earth beneath. Pine trees rise in every direction. This is home.

I was just thinking to myself. Of a romance never had. A look. A connection. A train passing by. Under cherry blossom petals blowing to the wind.
I thought how dreamlike that moment is. Those moments..are. And how connected I am to them. I thought of a girl I once worked with. Her eyes. Her smile. Her laughter. I thought of how it all turned. I thought of how I could not stand that job and how I changed because of it.

"That's not me. I really hate this place. I hate myself for staying here. Most of all I hate being bored. I crave adventure. I crave the open road. And this.. is one exhale away from being death. Listen..When we are no longer ourselves. When we give up who we are to exist. Out goes the light. The flame disappears. So I hope.. that in another life. When we meet again..we're free."

I hope we all are.

And as I looked into that flame I saw it,

For an instant time

Stood still

I saw life itself

I saw plants sprouting from the Earth

With enthusiasm

I saw death

I saw the cycles

I saw the seasons

I saw it all

Beginning and end

I saw Life rich as it is

Clear as the water

I saw birth

I saw youth

I saw old age; withering

A tree ripe with wisdom

I saw the spark and from it golden strands

And I realized why it was I loved video games so much

for in those games I had found this life


This life!

The life of excitement of adventure of knowing that something new was waiting to be discovered

To be found out to be learned!


Before there was control!

Before there was violence!

Before there was a system

Before the mold was cast!

I SAW LIFE! RAW UNADULTERATED

ISAW LIFE! PURE

I SAW LIFE! THE SPARK THE SPARK OF ALL CREATION

I saw the millions of threads within threads spooling forth into wonderous existence weaving in and through!



And then I saw something else.



Peace


Myself
 at the foot of a mountain with nothing but fields surrounding me

Golden fields with evergreens in the distance

I was sprawled out eating an apple in complete awe of what surrounded me

I was satisfied
 I knew that I had found what I was looking for

This perfect moment

The wind moved in slow motion and for a second I could see its structure

The atoms, the molecules

The fabric, hexagons of light fixed tightly in place danced before my eyes

And then there was music

The whimsical chimes of a far away bard passed through my ears

Reminding me of when music was pure

All of this came rushing through that dreamy portal as I stood that night to light my cigarette


Adventure was on the horizon and the horizon line grew near

I'm here to write


       to write about







Love

Romance

Art

Adventure

Poetry



All the things that make life worth living




I want to touch that spot

That spot that makes us wonder

That makes us remember

That makes us us

Deep down

And so

I point to those things




Hope you enjoy..